Sunday, January 5, 2014

a message that I 50% hope I get to someday send and 50% hope I get to forget about

Would it offend him (or you) if I took you to a show? I am aware that we have always just been friends. Don't get me wrong. I would jump at the chance of being your boyfriend because you're fucking cool. I respect how responsible and hardworking you are, and how you don't let the job you dislike kill your demeanor when we hang out. It's part of what makes you so fun to be around and so easy to talk with. I love that we can watch the same movies, while equally loving that our musical tastes differ greatly. I want know more about the music you like. It's happier than mine and (kinda) makes me want to dance. I like the way your face lights up when we explore haunted houses, and I like listening to you play piano. I want to know even more about your dreams, anxieties, philosophies, friends & families. And while it would be more rewarding for me if it were to happen with us being 'an item', I've become accustom to doing them as a friend... and I hope I can still do so because people as authentic as you deserve good friends... and if there's one thing that I may have mastered so far in life (probably to the chagrin of my own emotions and intimacies) it's being a good friend. I don't pan on not being a good friend to you (or anyone else for that matter) anytime soon.